I’m no stranger to jealous feelings. Sometimes, I’m consumed by them. My Love knows this and does everything he can to avoid situations he knows will trigger it. Today, with no fault of his own, I received a double dose.
We both have blogs on another site. For the most part, the positive aspects of the blogs have outweighed the negative. What I don’t like, and struggle with, is when women approach him. It would be one thing, if his site gave little or no information about whether he was in a relationship. However, that is not the case. In bold letters, it states he’s married. Yes, I know for many in the lifestyle that isn’t a limiting factor. I understand that.
I guess the worst aspect of jealousy, for me, is that it isn’t rational. I can sit back and look at the situation for all the sides and understand it, but it does little to remove the negative feelings. I can’t even shift it to anger, which in my experience is an easier emotion to deal with, because technically, no one did anything wrong.
I wish I was writing a story where one of the characters was the jealous type, because I have it in spade to draw from right now. Unfortunately, that isn’t the conflict between Brett and Alexa. They have enough issues between them to add something as destructive as this.
Maybe it’s time to shift gears and focus on the content edits for Bondage Seduction. That will get my blood pumping for a more positive reason. My editor and I are butting heads a bit. According to my husband, I’m being stubborn…nah, not me. I’m Ms. Congenial *as I duck to avoid any errant lightning strikes.
Today was a great writing day. I wrote a very pivotal scene and it came together better than I’d expected. There are a couple more hot sex scenes and then the climactic ending.
The characters are finding their way nicely. For the most part they are behaving themselves and not messing with me too much. Brianna is growing in confidence and it’s such a beautiful sight.
Hopefully, tomorrow will go as well. I know if I could stay off Tumblr and Facebook, I’d get more done… I may have to force myself not to open the apps. I really need to get this one finished. I have edits coming any day for Bondage Seduction and The One and Only. Wish me luck!
The characters in All Grown Up are originally from NY. My family and I took last weekend to tour the area. I think it helped me gain insight into Brianna and Steven. They’ve had a six year separation and are trying to start again. I’ll keep you up to date as their story progresses.
Living in Arizona, you learn to love the rain. There’s nothing better than an evening thunderstorm with lightning flashing across the sky and the deep rumble of thunder to get the blood pumping. Our monsoon season is in full swing. Although this year, it has been pretty mild, we had a kick-ass storm last night.
Several times I was awakened by a bright flash and the accompanying boom. As so often happens, I caught the tail end of my dream. In years past, it would frequently be about my day job. I’ve never been good at leaving work at work. It haunted my evening hours and invaded my sleep. Last night when I woke, characters from my latest book were running around in my head instead of nightmares leaving me in a cold sweat.
The forecast is calling for showers every night this week–I say bring it on!
Today, I was asked how I make my characters have such unique personalities. Their take on the subject was, I’ve created these ‘people’ in my mind, a forty-something, wife and mother of two–mind, so how can I write a from the point of view of a twenty-something accurately? After I thanked them profusely for telling me I succeeded in that goal, I was pretty much stumped on how to reply.
In my mind, the characters are real. Do they walk the streets, hold down actual jobs and scene at the kink club DiscipliNations? No, I haven’t slipped that far 🙂 However, the ‘people’ in my story come to me with distinct personalities. It’s my job to write in such a way that my readers get to know them and see them as real people too.
The first two books in the Desired Discipline series, Bondage Anniversary and Bondage Celebration are available January 3rd and February 14th of 2014. I hope you choose to read them and let me know what you think.
After my publisher accepted Bondage Anniversary, I started discussing the possibility of writing a series with my editor. She asked me to submit a proposal and she would let me know. To my absolute astonishment they not only liked the five books I had submitted, but asked me if I thought I could write a sixth. After I picked myself up off the ground, I hastily agreed.
The first two were no problem and the characters in book three were waking me up at night wanting me to hurry up and write their story. I do so love, James and Amanda! But as their story comes to end, I started worrying because the next couple had been silent. They haven’t invaded my showers (one of the best places to think through plot challenges) or my dreams.
Finally, while driving to the store it hit me–I was looking to the wrong character for help. Ted had no intentions of speaking to me. He isn’t looking for love. It’s Meri who is the force driving this relationship. She is such a schemer and poor Ted doesn’t know what’s about to hit him…
I quit my ‘day job’ today. I’ve never done such an irresponsible thing in my life. Damn it feels good. I wonder if the female character in my third book, Amanda, is rubbing off on me. 🙂 She would definitely pull an impulsive and capricious stunt like the one I just did. I must say, it is much better suited to a 22 year old than someone at my stage in life. I hope Amanda’s other personality traits remain unique to her – I have enough bad habits of my own without adding hers to my list…